Michael John Holme


"Embrace your aloneness"

distills 50 years into 108 pages.

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Aged 24 (1992) I saw a doctor about my mental health for the first time. Depression had gripped me for years, significantly though, the contemporary society was totally blind and ignorant about such issues, and would thus let them happen. In fact, the sufferers were ignorant too, and as a case in point, I had become quite poorly by this appointment. It led to my schizophrenia diagnosis, and its corresponding depot antipsychotics. But thankfully, psychotic depression (a mood disorder) was later, more reliably deemed to be my problem, and consequently my prognosis improved.

I'd been unfortunate, but I wasn't a victim. So afterwards, I earned a conversion degree in computing. I tried a poetry writing course, and I'd already begun classical piano lessons aged 21. Music studies led to my three permanent, and thankless computing jobs, to eventually gain some balance, because I began to collect students of my own. I was made redundant from my tech job in 2010, and got sickness benefits. Having much free time, my poetry writing was consequentially boosted, and my poems were often accepted for publication.

I married Michelle in 2015. Clare, my first wife, died in 2012. Michelle soon gave birth to our only child, Rose Megan Holme. She was stillborn.

Since then, I've regularly performed my poetry throughout the north west of England, and encouraged others to engage in spoken word, but particularly, recovering drug and alcohol users, and/or the vulnerable.


Creativity categorically helped me, and it has certainly helped many others I've met. I think I have recovered, but it is not "mathematical," so I can't be totally sure. However, I think a victim's path, undeniably cruel in many cases, is a well defined one. I believe such attitudes are very detrimental to sufferers. 

A rationale for writing

Academics, other than out-and-out scientists, connect and distil mostly known material. Mavericks on the other hand, produce work based on personal discoveries, even without goals as such. They may discover the fresh; or the well trodden; and frankly, the latter can seem quite fresh and unique to them. What is vital to humankind; is that useful ideas are repeatedly strengthened, by having independent discoveries repeated. Many people digesting many books, has to categorically fail in that respect. Human acquisition of wisdom is different, because each time universal truths are independently rediscovered, they become stronger, and are more readily acceptable by those without that lived experience, such as people in the same group, culture or nation, etc. Sadly, there are academics who might be protective of both their institutions, and their scholastic identities, and closed shop mentalities, such as a fanaticism for references, hamper this former approach.

I ask that you explore my writing, with the curiosity(?), humility(?) and openness of mind(?), that got you this far. My venture is most certainly not a commercial one.

Please believe my sincerity, when I say "Godspeed in discovering your worth."

Michael John Holme
BSc(Hons) MSc


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Written in 2021, "Selected musings" and "All about joe", reinforce and add to my earlier work with their own perspectives. Of course that's a feature of our major religions, which overlap one another also, if only in the most obvious manner that they all value fundamental human virtues so much.

Secular, academic and anecdotal thought, can offer equally deep, ultimate ideas, because of the profundity that can be achieved through individual introspection. Speaking of which, "All about joe" is general, not about an individual (hence a small 'j' was chosen.) It is tight, perhaps perplexing, and is pretty short.

"Selected musings" (or essays) has an interesting Contents Page -

What is truth? - 05

Life101 - 13

My three words - 21

Stress & the extroverted introvert - 36

No - A shortcut to assertiveness - 38

Negative egotism - 45

Faith - 50

Faces that follow us forever - 57

Ultimate deception - 63



"I am" :

"A revealing read that opens up questions to why we subscribe to the choices we make, with regards to trend, image and conformity etc. (to shape our identity). It made me question if the choices I have made regarding these and other paths, were taken purely for their assumed function or more to form an identity."

Darren Lea-Grime, Bicycle expert, Musician and Poet 

"I am" :

"Overall I have spent my professional lifetime (50 years) telling people that their lives count, their experiences matter, their survival skills admirable, their commitment to a life of drudgery virtuous. My point is that these are the very tools of change. Use them, reflect, learn and exercise choice. I think we agree on this."

Dave Morgan, Listener, Observer and much more

"I am" :

It's lovely when ideas are validated, but it's not the goal of thinking. This video, released over a year after I published my "I am" book, shows Sadhguru, indirectly, but also totally, agreeing with my independent ideas. Thus, two people, with no humanities links of academic types, uncannily, have a 100% overlap.

Jagadish Vasudev, Yoga Guru and Author

"I am" :

This second video also functions as a review by implication. It is newer than "I am", and it also features a wise-person, this time, the Zen Master / Abbot, Doshin Hannya Michael Nelson Roshi. He asks his class who they are, but ultimately tells them that a response of "not knowing" is perhaps best. Rooted just the same way, is the incomplete naming of my book, "I am".

Doshin Roshi, Poet, Troublemaker and Teacher

"Embrace your aloneness" :

"An honest, raw and searching collection of prose and poems that never concede to the anger they could, instead they express beautifully, pain, loss and grief, with tender insight. I found empathy in these words, which is surely the whole purpose of blackening pages. Michael narrates this work throughout, finding a fine balance between the poetry and commentary in the presentation of his journey, which I now understand to be heart breaking, generous and full of human kindness."

Oliver James Lomax, Poet 

"Embrace your aloneness" :

"Many thanks for the copy of 'Embrace Your Aloneness' which I read with pleasure and admiration for your endeavor! Syncretic forms are difficult to handle, but you've managed it with fluency and grace. The book is very powerful in delineating the roller-coaster of your history, with its emotional and mental disturbances, and the distribution of material between prose, poems and photographs is very persuasive. I don't think you could have found a better way of dealing comprehensively with so much material!"

~ John Anthony Connor FRSL, Retired professor of English

"Embrace your aloneness" :

"A work of great honesty and compassion with the autobiographical persona changing identities on several occasions! A mix of anecdotes and poems make a versatile content. It is published in fairly large print which makes it an easy read, finishing with some nice photographs for the reader to put a face to the names...."

~ Ann Brown, Retired legal secretary

"Embrace your aloneness" :

"This is a sensitive autobiography, brilliantly written using the author's own poetry and prose. A must read, the description is taken from Michael’s own experience. It explains how events of trauma in childhood can lead to depression, drug abuse and eventually serious mental illness in adulthood. Sometimes it is painfully honest and raw to the reader. Michael discusses the connection of mental illness to the stresses and temptations in modern life, compared to the past. The autobiography is proof that the author has survived against all odds. Through hard work and perseverance he has gained independence and peace."

~ Kate Collins MAFA, Artist


"Songs" from the same hymn sheet

JC - (Matthew 19:14) --- “’Allow the children to come to me,’ Jesus said. ‘Don’t forbid them, because the kingdom of heaven belongs to people like these children.’” CEB®

JC - (Luke 17:20-21) --- “Pharisees asked Jesus when God’s kingdom was coming. He replied, ‘God’s kingdom isn’t coming with signs that are easily noticed. Nor will people say, Look, here it is! or There it is! Don’t you see? God’s kingdom is already among you.’” CEB®

Ram Dass --- "The spiritual journey is individual, highly personal. It can't be organised or regulated. It isn't true that everyone should follow one path. Listen to your own truth."

Ram Dass --- "The game is not about becoming somebody, it's about becoming nobody."

Buddha --- “Do not look for a sanctuary in anyone except yourself.”

Buddha --- “The root of suffering is the attachment.”

Paramahansa Yogadanda --- “Humans become angels on earth, not in heaven.”

L. Ron Hubbard --- “The truth of the matter is that all the happiness you will ever find lies in you."


Bhagwan Rajneesh Osho --- “Once you have loved yourself, you will love God. And it is not a question of choice. It is when you have loved yourself that God starts falling in love with you.”

Hermann Hesse ---  "For different people, there are different ways to God, to the center of the world. Yet the actual experience itself is always the same.”

Anonymous --- "

When God had made the earth and sky,
the flowers and the trees,
he then made all the animals
and all the birds and bees.

And when his work was finished,
not one was quite the same,
he said: I'll walk this earth of mine
and give each one a name.

And so he travelled land and sea
and everywhere he went
a little creature followed him,
until its strength was spent.


When all were named upon the earth
and in the sky and sea,
the little creature said: Dear Lord,
there's not one left for me!

The Father smiled and softly said:
I've left you to the end.
I've turned my own name back to front
and called you, Dog my friend."

       * * *


A poem of mine and a piece I sometimes play.

Did Neil Armstrong wear thermals?


I saw the Moon today at early afternoon.

It was a cloud-like curve, hidden from all

but seekers. The sky was summertime blue,

and a police helicopter drowned out the sound

of gentle jazz in my car, but raised my eyes

to the sky.


At night the Moon was a breast, illuminated

like a cream neon in Soho. But with my naked eyes

I could see a cancer on it, a shadow from an impact

too long ago to comprehend? I stared at the Moon so long

it subtly moved in my window until it disappeared.

I asked myself, with all that light is it hot?

Then I thought, nonsense, Armstrong probably

wore thermals.



"Pure Imagination" -
from "Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory" ~

There is no life I know
to compare with pure imagination.
Living there you'll be free,
if you truly wish to be.


Two diverse video afterthoughts introduced in the "lobster" font.

In a classic clip, Hollywood alludes to just the same.

You will be hurt to hear this only at 60! That is when you remember having taken that figurative blue pill !


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